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I'm afraid of even saying so... in case I 'jinx' it. Why is it so hard to make friends when you get older? Maybe cool  is different now, and I'm not cool  anymore. I know I thought I was, once. When I was at University, I felt like an invincible 20-something year old, independent, free-thinking physicist. Anyway, I digress. I have a new friend. And she thinks I am all of those things - except a nearly 40-something year old. Perhaps it is only I that thinks less of me now. I no longer feel invincible. I've had plenty of rejections to know that I'm not THAT special. Sure, I'm intelligent, independent, problem-solver and I usually get what I want. But not always, and I have to work for it. I've seen it come easy to some, but not that easy for me. Don't get me wrong, I live a pretty easy and privelleged life. But I also know that it takes work. Stuff isn't always black and white, and sometimes you need to break your own rules to get ahead. Yo

Happy new year for all those folks (not) reading this blog! I FEEL good today, the first day of the new year. Probably because I didn't drink last night and went to bed at a decent (10:30pm) time! Thought it appropriate to start the new year not feeling shite  like most other years, and most other people! So, what are my new year's resolutions, you ask? I don't have any actually. No resolutions. Just a promise to make a conscious effort to do some things differently. This is a big year for me. Or I would like to make it a big year for me. I'm turning 40. I want to use this as an opportunity to re-evaluate what I want from my life, and where I would've liked to be when I was 40. I know, the cliched version of turning 40. So here's some of the things I've thought of that I want to change. 1. I want to be fit when I turn 40. My version of fit of course. A realistic version of a better me. 2. I want to spend the first month doing 30 days of yoga -